Wednesday, June 24, 2009

New Stuff I'm Into

Hi! I know it's been a while, but I've been busy!! You see, I started to train for this insane triathlon in September with Team in Training.  Check out my other blog to get updates, if you want to: www.triathlonhereicome.blogspot.com.  Last night at training I was asking my coach what I should focus on, since I pretty much suck at everything.  I said, " So since I suck at the bike and the swim, oh wait, and I suck at running, too.... what should I focus on?" She starts laughing, " So I signed up for this race....."  Yeah, pretty much.  So I haven't been training like I should, I know, it's just so overwhelming.  And my daughter, cute, 16 month old daughter, isn't walking yet.  She has hip dysplasia, which isn't like a disease, it's actually fixable, but I thought it would be fixed like, a year ago now.  So I'm really weirded out and scared that it's not fixed yet.  And I hate looking at the way she kind of drags her left leg along with her ankles all rolled in when she "walks" with our fingers or her car.  I just have to trust her pt, this is fixable.  She will be totally normal in a few years, you won't be able to tell her apart from the other little ones running around.  I just have to believe it.  And on top of training and my daughter's ( I love saying "my daughter") pt, I have also gone to Vegas, for a long weekend, two days of which we spent driving back and forth, and fundraising for before said triathlon.  Crazy, crazy days.  On top of house work and meals I'm supposed to somehow provide, you know, I'm a stay at home mom, that's actually my job, so I feel totally inadequate when I look around at all the dog hair and stains on the tile, the mildew growing in the bathtub, the pee smell coming from the carpet, oh god I live in a pig sty!! So yes, I've fallen off of the blog bandwagon.  

I'm seriously considering going back to work.  I'm really going insane staying at home and trying to do everything.  

I'm seriously considering giving up the "dream" of Cyclebrew.  This is my passive aggressive way of confronting this issue.  

Ok, I'm cleaning up the desk now.